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Thursday, June 30, 2005

1:21AM - got bored

yeah im bored so i thought id update i hae no idea y im still up possibly because i cant sleep because wut happened (livvi jose and tara u guys no wut happened and so this is mainly toword u guys)it still bothers me too altho i expected sum1 to do that eventually actually b4 i wish sum1 actually did it now im scared as hell to even step outside i wish i couldnt b so afraid but i dont no y i am i aint got nothin to live for neways my life is so screwed up except for my friends or at least the ones who have always been there for me and if ur readin or commentin on this then u prolly r but yeah u guys have always been there for me so thanx.and im tryin to type without lookin at the keyboard but it aint workin to well. but neways i love my friends sum more then others (and u no who u r)but thnx to all my friends u guys have been the 1s to keep me goin and not quitin life

Current mood: cant stop thinkin

Current music: senses fail :burired a lie

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Monday, June 20, 2005

11:44PM - my life

OMG my mom just went nuts on me because shes drunk and sed she was gunna beat me so bad she would make me into a bloody pulp well she did beat me but she didnt make me bleed that bad.but then she went and uninstalled my AIM so i cant talk on that nemore.And at that im already tryin to solve my own prblems then she goes and says my problems r makin me beat u like this i was like id like to see u do it agn cuz next time ull be the bloody pulp and i wasnt liein she pisses me off so bad then she wonders y i make her an enemy I HATE HER.god would somebody please jus get me away from this life.look wut i have become cant go five minutes without sum1 bein mad at me or me being sad i feel as tho my friends rnt there nemore (except for exceptional few and u guys no who u r)i dont have to many people i can trust i always have that feelin of insecurity but then agn who cares.well if u want to talk to me call me (283 2756) or comment on this.

Current mood: indescribable

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3:08PM - the carni

the carnival was awsome these past few days especially saturday.matt u really need to go on more of those things called rides.THE TERMINATOR IS THE BEST!yeah fun times next year will b awsome!!!

Current mood: cheerful

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Friday, June 17, 2005

4:44PM - i dont give a crap

i dont give a shit if u want to help u told jose wut i sed ur the only person who new wut i sed so u obviously told him and i give up neways bcause nething i say is always turned agasnt me

Current mood: pissed off

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Thursday, June 16, 2005

1:37AM - i hate life

u no sumtimes its better to let every thing out instead of keepin things in trust me i would no and if ur one of my friends i will always be here for u because i no wut its like i hate life just as much as u do mayb even more.

Current mood: depressed

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